Ezekiel 20 part 1

Shabbat Shalom my precious girls,

I pray this finds you all doing wonderfully and enjoying this absolutely beautiful Shabbat! Atleast it is absolutely beautiful here on the north shore, in Massachusetts!

I mentioned a passage of scripture that I wanted to share that I have been mediating on for weeks now. There are actually quite a few, but this chapter is what has been the basis of all the other scripture verses…and it’s Ezekiel 20. Months ago, as I was praying about something, Yhwh had given me this passage of scripture. But more recently, He has been pulling out different things within it, and its been so convicting and so thought-provoking for me. It begins with Yhwh seemingly pleading with Ezekiel. Let’s read what He says…

Ezekiel 20:4 “Wilt thou judge them, son of man, wilt thou judge them? cause them to KNOW the abominations of their fathers:”

Cause them to know the abominations of their fathers. But what exactly was their problem? What abominations was Yhwh pleading with Ezekiel to show them?

First we see Yhwh telling them to “…cast ye away every man the abominations of his eyes, and defile not yourselves with the idols of Egypt:…” Then we see as we read further in the chapter what their problem was. “Wherefore I caused them to go forth out of the land of Egypt, and brought them into the wilderness. And I gave them (remember this part!) my statutes, and shewed them my judgments, which if a man do, he shall even live in them. Moreover also I gave them my sabbaths (key part!), to be a sign between me and them, that they might KNOW that I am Yhwh that sanctify them.”

So we see here what the whole chapter is about. Yhwh gave them his judgments, his statutes, his sabbaths, and something was happening that caused Yhwh to be just a wee bit upset with the people. Remember what He said at the beginning of the chapter…”Wilt thou judge them, son of man, wilt thou judge them? cause them to KNOW…!” He said He gave us all these laws, to be a sign between us, that we would KNOW that He was Yhwh which sanctifies them. Let’s continue reading on.

“But the house of Israel REBELLED AGAINST ME in the wilderness: they walked NOT in my statutes, and they DESPISED (key word) my judgments, which if a man do, he shall even live in them; and my sabbaths they GREATLY (key word) polluted: then said I, I would pour out my fury upon them…” a little bit further down the chapter “Because they DESPISED my judgments, and walked not in my statutes, but polluted my sabbaths: FOR THEIR HEART WENT AFTER THEIR IDOLS.”

I want you to think about these key points that Yhwh is addressing here. Yhwh gave, yet they were despising and greatly polluting His Sabbath’s and laws. But how were they? They were polluting them because their heart went after idols. In another area He mentions them learning the ways of the heathen. So the question that I had and have is, putting this in today’s time period, and making it personal, are we doing the same things? Are there laws that we despise? We may do them. I’m not saying we don’t. But do we DESPISE them? Do we look down upon them?And, are we polluting His Sabbath’s (or any other laws) by idols that we have set up in our own lives? Have other things taken the place of Yhwh? Are we learning the ways of the heathen? How does our hearts line up? Do we pass the test? Or are we, too, walking in the abominations of our fathers?

Ezekiel 20:18-21, “But I said unto their children in the wilderness, Walk ye not in the statutes of your fathers, neither observe their judgments, nor defile yourselves with their idols: I am Yhwh your God; walk in MY statutes, and keep my judgments, and do them; And hallow my sabbaths; and they shall be a sign between me and you, that ye may know that I am Yhwh your God. Notwithstanding the children REBELLED against me: they walked not in my statutes, neither kept my judgments to do them, which if a man do, he shall even live in them; they polluted my sabbaths: then I said, I would pour out my fury upon them, to accomplish my anger against them in the wilderness.”

Over and over and over again He keeps explaining this was the problem. They were not obeying Him. They were not only walking in their own ways, they were despising and polluting His. I think He is referring to all of his statutes and judgments, but I found it very interesting that He constantly refers back to His Sabbath’s. We MUST hallow His Sabbath’s! It is SO important that we keep it holy. But read what happens next.

Ezekiel 20:22-24, “Nevertheless I withdrew mine hand, and wrought for my name’s sake (key part!), that it should not be polluted in the sight of the heathen (Key phrase!), in whose sight I brought them forth. I lifted up mine hand unto them also in the wilderness, that I would scatter them among the heathen, and disperse them through the countries (WHY????); BECAUSE they had not executed my judgments, but had DESPISED my statutes, and had POLLUTED my sabbaths, and THEIR EYES were after their fathers’ idols.”

They were scattered because He cares about His name and they were defiling it! He cares how we represent Him, He cares how we keep His laws, but He even cares how we THINK about His laws!

So let me pass the question onto you that I have had going through my own mind; Are there laws that you may not understand, or like, that you despise or simply look down upon? It’s easy to point the finger and tell others that they are walking in the abominations of their forefathers, but the question really needs to become personal, Are we? How do our lives line up with scripture?

It’s had me on a journey of really going through His word and evaluating my own life up against His word. Are my thoughts pleasing in His eyes? Is the way I live my life, pleasing to Him? Am I hallowing and keeping His Sabbath’s the way HE designed? Have I set up other idols in my life (remember, idols can be anything that makes us idle with Yhwh)? Am I learning the ways of the heathen around me, without even realizing it?

My precious sisters, we have to make the word, personal. It was written for US. Are your conversations pleasing? Do they glorify your God? Is your language pure? Or are you trying to “fit in” with the world around you? How do you keep His Sabbath days? Has Sabbath been turned into a day of speaking our own words and doing what pleases us, or what pleases Him? That’s a whole post in and of itself! But this chapter has had me pondering and meditating and asking Yhwh to search my own heart and see if their be any wicked way in it. I don’t have time right now, but as soon as I do, I will try to post part 2 of this chapter. I think what Yhwh says will make you stop in your tracks and sincerely think and ponder it even more than what He has already shared with us up to this point! Its incredible! We MUST take inventory of our lives. Remember Yhwh scattered the children of Israel for His names sake, because of their rebellion! We are STILL scattered today What will it take to be regathered in Israel? But I must not get ahead of myself. :o)

For now, I have dinner to prepare and a fire to get going, as another Shabbat has passed and another day has dusked (I can’t say dawned, as it’s evening! lol). So until next time…

Yours truly,

Samantha

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Be Still and KNOW that I am Yhwh thy God

Shalom my precious girls,

(I realize the format in this post is terribly messed up and it’s due to my only having notepad on my pc right now, as I had to leave before my Office cd came in the mail. So please just bear with me for a few more post and hopefully I will get a program loaded back on my laptop :o)

I mentioned in the last post about my possibly going overseas for 6 months and prayers taking longer than I expected for
them to be answered. I would like to share a little bit more about this journey Yhwh has brought me down, in hopes that it will be an encouragement to you,
as it has definitely been for me…and a reminder that none of us should ever forget what He has said.

Through the years, Yhwh has laid different things on my heart and shared different things with me. One of which, was serving in Israel. For years now, I have felt Him
calling me there. In fact, my heart had been in Africa for many, many years before (pretty much since I was a young believer), but I felt Him clearly tell me that my
heart was in the wrong place and it needed to be in Israel. At that point, I really had no desire to even go to Israel, let alone serve there. I began a journey of pouring
my heart out to Him and asking Him to give me a love for His people, like He had. I wanted to be where He wanted me, and I wanted to love the people He had called me
to love…and not just love, but to love them like HE loved them! I needed him to do a heart transplant, and He did a complete one in record time!
I know I have shared this story with you all before, how He told me to get into the book of Isaiah, and to keep reading it over and over again! You can not (in my humble
opinion!) read that book WITHOUT getting a heart for His people!
My heart began to change and a love began to sprout within it, that I can’t even describe. Within 8 months, I was standing on Israeli soil! He had my heart, and He had blessed
me with the most amazing month of my life. Just before I left, I felt Him tell me to get a certain ring, as a reminder of His love for me and as a reminder that He would always
be there with me, He would never leave me nor forsake me, and as a reminder that He WOULD bring me back! We had just had a walk together and I began just crying out to Him.
He had my heart where He wanted it, why was He now sending me back? But I felt Him tell me I wasn’t ready just yet, and He had more work to do in me, and had more work
for me to do back home (where I lived).

Week after week passed, month after month, and year after year. I thought surely He would bring be back within a year! But no, He had other plans still. And one year turned
into two, and two into almost three. March 26 would have been the three year mark for when I first arrived in Israel. Then for the first time this past fall/winter, I felt
Him tell me that it was time to return! I was soooo excited! Beyond excited! Knowing a little bit from prayer as to what He wanted me to do while there, I began searching
as to where and how long I was to be gone for. One lead led to another, and finally, to the most amazing place ever. At that point, there wasn’t any question that this was
where He wanted me to be and I sat there marvelling at His goodness! It was a home caring for the elderly believers in the land. I thought back over the past three years,
and everything He had me doing, was in preparation for preparing me so that I qualified to do what I am about to be doing. It was amazing! With my parents blessing, I sent
my application in. I thought surely I would hear right away. Nope. Yhwh had still other plans. He had a lesson He wanted to drill home to me, before sending me.

“Be still and know that I am YHWH thy God”.

Day after day, week after week, eventually turned into a months time. I had been in contact with a lady there before, but now all I heard was absolute silence. I began to waver.
I questioned if I had even heard Yhwh correctly. Why was I so sure, yet now, all I got was silence? Had I really made everything up in my mind, or had I heard Him loud
and clear? If so, why the silence? Everything became a question. What was He doing? Things weren’t exactly going as I had planned or thought He wanted.
But as I sought His face, really sought His face, He began to remind me of all He had once told me. Scriptures came back. Things He had me doing to prepare me, all came
back. I felt like the Israelite’s who had been told, had been shown, yet soon forgot. They started questioning Yhwh’s goodness, His truth, and what He had told them He was
doing. I sat there and told Yhwh I was so sorry for even doubting Him at His word. I found I was no different than the Israelite’s. He brought Sarah back to my mind. Yhwh
had told them He would bless them with a son. But when year after year passed on by, and she soon found that even her childbearing years had gone by, and still no son had been born,
she began to doubt. Maybe Yhwh didn’t intend to give HER a son. Maybe He intended to provide for her in a different way. We all know the story. Hagar came into the picture
and with her, a son who has hated Yhwh’s chosen from the first day. It wasn’t how Yhwh had intended to provide for her. He meant what He had said. He would give Abraham and
HER a son, not Abraham and Hagar a son. Yet because she doubted, and thus made things happen in her own way of reasoning, look at the mess that came about. They had heard
Yhwh correctly. But trust began to falter, as time passed on.

When Yhwh tells us something, will we listen? Will we follow? Or will we grow weary and begin to doubt we ever heard Him correctly? Will we take things into our own hands and
just assume He had other ways He intended to use us, other than what He had told us? Or other places, than where He had told us He wanted us?

But as soon as I had come to this place, feeling more and more settled that I had heard Him right, all of a sudden, the doors swung open wide! The very next morning, I heard
back and within two days, heard that I was approved and that we needed to start the visa application process and get things moving! I wanted to cry. I wanted to shout.
I wanted to sing for joy. I found myself so incredibly thankful for Him bringing me down the path He had, through the waters He had, to the place I was now at. It was
a testing for sure to see if I would follow Him, and although I didn’t know it at the time, although sensed it a couple of times, I now knew for sure. Would I be a Sarah,
or would I follow Him and trust Him to lead me each step of the way…giving me the strength that I needed for the journey He had me on?

Girls, listen to your heavenly Father and stand strong! When He says “be still”, be still! When He says He has called you to a place, trust that He has, and that He will
provide a way. When His timing isn’t ours, don’t change His will, to fit into your time-frame, or doubt Him at His word, simply because we think things should have happened
already. That month of silence taught me more than I can ever say. It stretched me. It tried me. But it has also confirmed things in a whole new way for me. It has deepened
my dependency upon my God, it has shown me how weak I am without Him, and how I need Him at each and every single step of the way! I can’t do this in my own strength. I don’t WANT
to do this in my own strength! And I know that these next 7 months are going to be trying, to say the least. But knowing I am in the center of His will, is more comforting
than I could ever possibly explain. Although I will miss everyone dearly, I am excited to finally be preparing, and finally getting to His field! And I look soooo forward
to what He will accomplish and teach me while I am there! I look so forward to how He will use me, while I am there!

But in all this, I can’t ask you enough to keep me in your prayers as I venture to this new field of service He is calling me to. Especially as forms are filled and sent,
meetings with the interior happen, for preparations to go smoothly, especially that I would know what to bring and what I shouldn’t, etc. I had to laugh as I arrived down here
to Boston, to care for a precious elderly friend of mine who had hurt himself. As I took my first bus here in the states, had to deal with trains, and had my first experience
of taxi life. Me being in the innocent gal that I am, and who has only had two taxi rides her entire life, one of which was with my father, the other one, one that he had
set up for me. Well, lets just say, as my friend said “girl, he saw you coming!”. This country girl doesn’t know much about the ins and outs of city living. He had told
me to either take the taxi or subway (which would require another change in stations to get to the correct train I needed), and on my way there, a man asked if I would like
a taxi ride there (to my train)? Its only a mile away, so I said “sure”. First mistake, he didn’t have a meter, and second was, I didn’t know you had to ask him how much
before he left! I just assumed it would be the same price and forgot that we do not live in a righteous world. I got there and about fell over when he told me (yes, an older
man who we had been having a very nice conversation together) that it was $25! Mind  you, my bus ticket for a 6 hr ride was $35! But what do you do. As I told L, it’s a lesson
I guess I had to learn and glad I learned it BEFORE leaving the country! So its been amazing as Yhwh prepares me in how to deal with the public transportation’s, as I have never
had to deal with this before…not really. Getting on one train is one thing. Swapping tracks, trains, subways, taxi’s, buses…it’s a whole new world for me. So definitely
keep me in  your prayers and that Yhwh would show me how to navigate around Israel. I thank Him constantly for my smartphone and apps that help with such things! :o)

Also, as it stands right now, I should be leaving sometime the end of March/early April. Pretty much as soon as I get the paperwork over there, I will have a date. I will
try to keep you girls updated, but if things become a bit quiet again, you know why! (I will try to write that article about the passage of scripture tomorrow!)

So until later,
Yours truly,
Samantha

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My Grace IS Sufficient

Shalom my precious sisters!
For weeks now, I have been wondering what I should share with you. There is so much going through my mind and heart, yet I find myself at loss of words. I know, not too often. :o) But I will try to share my heart with you and what has been taking place.
As you know, I was the primary care-taker of my grandfather for 3.5 years, until his passing this last July. Soon after that, I was needed out of state, only to arrive home for 2 weeks, and leave to go help my precious sister with her beautiful family and new set of equally beautiful twin girls, for another 3.5 months. Upon my return home January 5, I was not in the least bit prepared for what met me. I was so immensely glad to be back home, having missed my family a great deal, and knowing that I was most likely about to leave the country for another 6 months. But at the same time, even amongst the joy and excitement at seeing and being with my beloved family, I was hit with the realization that my grandfather was gone, once again. Not only did my arms feel incredibly empty, having had the three little ones in them for three and a half months, but I just felt at such a loss. I had always had my grandfather to take care of upon my return trips home, yet basically for the first time, I arrived home to not having him to look after.
I have to say that the loneliness that hit, and the heartache and longing, was nothing I was prepared for. Yes, I could help around the house for sure, but I found myself trying to find a new normal and not really knowing where to start. I had pretty much wrapped my loose ends up before leaving, having had Yhwh lay it on my heart to get things done beforehand, so I didn’t really have any projects going. And since I’m also getting ready, Yhwh willing, to leave to serve overseas for 6 months, starting something big, I knew was out of the question.
Nights were the worst and became something that I dreaded. I had a beautiful routine where I would rock the girls to sleep pretty much each night. I found my heart aching, my hands empty. That’s when I began to sense Yhwh telling me to “be still” and I realized just how hard that was for me to do. I love serving. I love helping. Sitting still isn’t something I am good at doing and made me deal with a lot that I honestly, would have rathered not had to think about. Sure, I help out around our home, I cook, I clean, I run errands, I knit, I sew, etc. But keep in mind, for the past 4 years, my life looked a lot different. He was always there to take care of, to get up in the morning, to feed during the day and care for, and we always had an especially sweet routine in the evenings when I put him to bed. But all of a sudden, I realized my life was taking on a totally different “new normal”. And at the present, I didn’t have anyone to take care of, and that was a rough reality that set in.
I found myself spending more time in the Word, reading encouraging books, and just praying. I never realized this season would be so difficult, and I guess, because I have been so busy since July, I never really thought much about the fact that I was going to have to re-organize my life (if you want to call it that). I never realized just how hard it would be when things began to quiet down, and answers to prayer about my next step, would take longer to be answered than I expected. So instead of life being extremely busy, I found it to be quiet…for a first time in a very long time. I didn’t even have births happening. Which has been a blessing, but nonetheless, hard. But through all this, I have found myself drawing ever closer to the One who never leaves us nor forsakes us, and oh, how sweet our time has been! When you are in the midst of serving, at times it is hard to spend quality time together, but in the stillness, I found myself learning to love the One my soul loves, even moreso! Those evenings, instead of being something that I dreaded, became sweet times. Early mornings became sweet coffee times with my Saviour, my Lover, my Guide, my Provider, and my Counselor. And I have to say, every day, I am learning to depend upon Him in a whole new way. The more I realize just how weak I am, the stronger I realize He is. In the lonely hours of the night, I found Him to be especially close.
Girls, I share all this to encourage you, go to Him. Seek Him. Lean on Him. We all have our moments of weakness, loneliness, heartache, and struggle. In those times, draw all the closer to Him! Let Him supply all your needs. Let Him show you He is your Provider, your Comforter, your Joy, your Strength! Dig ever deeper into His Word, and let Him show you new and wonderful things from it! It is His love letter to you! It is a letter about your Love, that He wrote just for YOU! Treasure it! Study it! Ponder it! When the nights become lonely, which Satan loves to try to come in during our weakest moments – so beware!!, meditate on His Word!!! You may not be like me, most aren’t :o), but for me, what really really helps, is to write out scripture verses on index cards (okay, I like color so mine are bright!) and post them all over your room and bathroom! The key to learning how to turn these struggles into something beautiful, is to turn your eyes to Him! Focus on Him. Meditate on His Word…the truth!!  Take each thought captive to the obedience of Messiah. Satan wants us to dwell on our loneliness and struggles, Yhwh wants you to dwell upon His truth and what He has already told you! Yhwh says that “the JOY of Yhwh IS OUR STRENGTH!” Satan wants to steal our joy, don’t you let him do it! He knows that if he can get your focus off of Yahshua and onto your seeming problems, he has you. He will also try to distract you. Again, don’t let him. KEEP YOUR EYES FOCUSED ON YAHSHUA!
Yesterday He brought back a Psalm which has meant so much to me. Psalm 106 (now going into Psalms 107…ever thought about the waves of life like the waves of the sea? That’s a chapter to ponder!), but back to Psalms 106…it speaks about the Israelites forgetting what Yhwh had already done. They murmored. They once remembered, but soon forgat.  So often, I think that is us (or atleast me). I often forget just what He has done in my life, and just WHO my God is. May we never forget. May we never complain about where He has us, but instead, ask Him why He has us here, and what He has for us to accomplish for Him while we are here. Maybe its within our own hearts that He longs to minister to, more than to have us ministering. In my case, I think that is just what He longed to do. In the next post I will share with you all a passage of scripture that has been on my heart for weeks. I find myself meditating upon it day and night. I can’t get enough of it and I know I am far from grasping the entire truth of it. But oh! How I long to! It has been ever so convicting and I know more than ever, He longs for me to gain the truth of what He is trying to say through it.
But until next time…I know…I’m leaving you all hanging! :o)
Yours humbly,
Samantha

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Jean, Paisley and a Pink Blouse

 

Hello all!
I hope this week finds you enjoying the beauty our Heavenly Father and Creator has made and blessed you with. 🙂 I was thinking about things that Yahweh has blessed me with and my heart becomes so overwhelmed and filled as I think about family and friends who are as family, the best in the whole world! 🙂 Another is the snow. 🙂 We have been under a blanket of snow for the past…three months? I can’t remember when it was that the ground wasn’t covered! Lol. I almost took a picture a couple weeks ago, as we were getting warmer weather and a patch of ground under our snow fort door melted, revealing green grass! 🙂 The snowflakes, sliding down a hill in our woods on my coat because of the hard, thick icy coating under a couple of inches making a nice slide, the fresh fallen blanket of white snow coating the ground, the millions of sparkles, bright moonlit night…so many things to be thankful for!!!!! 🙂

I’ve realized that a nice denim jacket can be soo warm and comfortable! It is really my all-season jacket as it is warmer in the winter, yet, somehow just perfectly warm yet not toasty, in the cool summer evenings. I guess it just helps to regulate the heat as I can wear it indoor and outdoor without becoming too hot or cold. 🙂

Anyway, here are a few pictures of an outfit I wore a few weeks ago to the vets, and then indoors as we played games as a family. I realized just how incredibly comfortable and nice to wear that it was, and decided to go ahead and get pictures to post here. 🙂 Here they are!

The jacket was given to me by friends in Tennessee
The blouse, I bought for a few dollars (I think) at our thrift store
The long sleeve T was given to me by Samantha

 photo IMG-20170125-WA0022.jpgThe skirt is handmade and was also given to me by Samantha
The boots were a $8 thrift store find for my birthday gift, also by Samantha!!! They’ve lasted me quite a while as they were given to me in June, and I have worn them often since then, yet there is still little wear appearing. They are fake leather, so they’re a little too warm in the summer at times, but I like them a lot! 🙂 I’ve worn these boots to a wedding, sabbath gatherings, vets and family farms and they’ve worked well for each. 🙂
I love my sister and being the next gal to her size in the house!!! 🙂 Thank you Lolly!!!

Here is a picture without the jacket…

 photo IMG-20170125-WA0023.jpgI put my bangs up in an inside-out French braid, also called a Dutch Braid and pinned the braid back with a plastic claw.

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There it is! 🙂 It’s been a long time since I’ve done an outfit post. I hope you enjoy!!!

Sarah

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Thirty-Three and Thoughts to Ponder

Shortly after waking this morning, what Yahshua went through around this age, began to play through my mind. You see, today I turned 33 years old. People generally say that Yahshua died on the cross around this time in His life, as close as they can figure from dates and things that happened around that time.

As I pondered this, I began pondering and comparing our lives. What has my life accomplished for His Kingdom, vs. what did His life accomplish? I marvel at what His life accomplished!! He was always about His Father’s business, even as a young boy. Everything He did in life, had purpose. It had an ultimate goal; our redemption, our cleansing, our growing ever closer to His Father, Yahweh, to name a few.

I began to ponder the fact that Yahshua paid the highest price for me, His own precious blood! I am no longer my own, for I have been bought by His blood, …and I have (as do we all!) a Kingdom purpose. I am not here to accomplish my own desires or wishes, but His. And because I am not my own (HalleluYah!), but His, my time is not my own, but His. This brought me to farther question, “What am I doing, and how am I using, my time? Is it how He desires and planned? Or am I wasting it on useless things?”

You see, my precious sisters, I know for myself, so often I can get so focused on “my” desires. What “I” want to accomplish. (Or worse yet, simply find myself having wasted precious hours on things that do not amount to anything of worth!) But this isn’t supposed to be our attitude! We are here for a very specific purpose! And it isn’t to bring pleasure to ourselves! It’s to please, serve, and obey our King! It is to further HIS Kingdom, His family.

So let me ask you a question; how are you spending your time? Are you spending it in a way that is pleasing to your Saviour? Are you in obedience to His Word? A servant doesn’t do what he/she pleases! She does what pleases her Master. How do our lives line up with His Word? Are we even in the Word?

My precious sisters, life is but for a moment here on earth. As you reflect upon each day, how much of that day was used doing what pleases your King, verses what pleases your flesh? Did you even spend time with your King? Have you asked Him lately what He desires for you to accomplish for Him? Or do you assume you already know? And once you do know, have you asked Him how you should accomplish each task? Just because we may think it should be done one way, doesn’t mean that’s what He wants or desires. We have to be in constant contact and conversation with our Saviour, so that we know what each day’s assignments are! Don’t let the time He has given to you, the time that He has bought with His precious Son’s blood, go to waste! Use your time wisely!! Better yet, ask Him how He wants you to use it!! :o)

May our lives, just as His Son’s life, count for His Kingdom and accomplish great and mighty things for Him! May we use each situation in our life, as a means of drawing ever closer to our King. May we constantly be in prayer, each step of the way, asking Him how He wants us to do whatever it is we need to do. Let’s not assume we know what His wishes and desires are, but instead, seek His wisdom, His counsel, His constant help each and every step of the way. And when you realize that you have not been walking as He would want, repent and turn. Each day starts afresh. Seek Him and seek His Kingdom, first!

Instead of looking back on each day with regret, realizing that we have let opportunities slip on past us, and have wasted the precious minutes and hours that He has blessed us with, instead find ourselves clinging to each one and using each one to farther His Kingdom!

Shabbat Shalom!

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To Know That I Am Yhwh

Recently I was reading a book that has made me stop and ponder a lot of truths. One of those being, what is the purpose for us being here? Why does Yhwh allow us to go through the things that He does? What is His goal in allowing us to be brought through the wilderness experiences in our lives? Why does He allow us to be tested and tried?

As I pondered all of these questions, the truth that I had read, drilled the truth home to me. In everything, the one goal Yhwh has for us, is that we would come to know Him -to truly know Him- to have a personal relationship with Him, the God of the universe! He wants us to know beyond any shadow of doubt, that He alone is God and there is none besides Him. Each and every single thing that He allows us to go through in this life, has an ultimate goal of cultivating, nuturing, and maturing our relationship, trust, love and dependency in Him.

As I read through scripture, time and time again, He says “so that you will KNOW that I am Yhwh THY God”. He doesn’t send us through the fire, just to burn us. He sends us through the fire, so that we would know who He is and how much He loves us. He loves us so much and longs for nothing more than a close relationship with us! But that too, means that we must be holy! What will mature and deepen that relationship and dependency upon Him? What will drive us to Him, so that we will come to know who He really is? That is what He will allow us to go through.

My sisters, so often, like the children of Israel, it is a step by step process. We can’t snap our fingers to be who we need to be. Yhwh told the Israelites that He would slowly drive out their enemies, so that the land would not be overtaken by the beasts of the field, knowing full well it was too much at that moment in time, for them to handle. He wanted them to be able to manage the ground that they were taking, that it wouldn’t be taken back by the enemy. Our life, is much the same way. He slowly purges us and cleanses us, showing us our sinful ways. And how I thank Him it is a process, and not a single moment in time, for which one of us could handle such an undertaking all at once?! Talk about a loving and merciful God!

Girls, our ultimate goal in this lifetime, is to “…love Yhwh thy God with all thine heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind” (Deut 6:5) He wants a pure and holy Bride…pure and holy unto Himself. He wants you to know who He is, as your Father, as your God, and as your Husband! He wants us to KNOW Him, not just about Him!

Do you realize that He said 894 times “know that I am Yhwh”? Sisters, 894 times (those exact words…I’m sure there are WAY more times that He said it using different words!)!!!! So the next time Yhwh brings you through something, realize it is an invitation to get to know who He is, how much He loves you, and how much He desires for you, as His Bride, to truly know Him. It is an invition for intimacy between you and your God. Don’t ignore it. Don’t reject it. Allow it to mature your love for Him. Allow it to cleanse you so that you can deepen your love for and in Him. Love is a process. It is a learning curve for each one of us. As you read scripture, realize it is His love letter to you, as His Bride, to teach you how to love Him more faithfully, completely, and unconditionally! It is to purify us and to cleanse us, so that we can love Him from a pure and set apart heart. Don’t look at it with eyes that want to do what you want to do. Don’t read it with eyes that want to learn how to love Him like you think He should be loved. Read it as a letter to you, from your Groom, on how He needs to be loved (and remember that “if you love me, keep my commandments” – obedience is an act of love in one of the deepest forms).

May we truly come to know who our God is and nuture our relationship with Him, day by day! May we come to love, adore, and obey Him, as God, our God. May we truly become a holy and set apart people, set apart to Him and for Him.

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A long awaited update…where have I been???

 photo IMG-20160928-WA0040.jpgShabbat Shalom precious sisters!! (LOL this was written LAST Shabbat…now I can say it was written about three weeks ago!..but I just didn’t get a chance to finish it…Sorry I didn’t get it posted then!)

I had to smile when I received a comment from a dear reader asking “Where have you been, and is all ok? I so enjoy reading your blog and I miss your entries! I hope your absence is because you’ve been busy with good things and not because something’s wrong. Please write soon!”

I realized I hadn’t written anything since August!!! Has it really been that long?!?! I’m truly sorry about that…but to answer your questions…

YES, I have been very, very busy, and yes, I am doing alright! ?

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This past year has been, well…a crazy, hard, challenging, joyful, inspiring, “learning to depend upon Yhwh more and more” type of year for sure, not to mention it being just a very full year in many many ways, too!

This summer brought 3.5 years of my caring for my grandfather to an end and found me helping him walk through the last week of his life, as all of you know from previous posts. Then the beginning of August found me making my parents quilt for their anniversary which Yhwh had showed me how to put together just before my grandfather passed away (I had tried figuring it out about 11 years ago and couldn’t and then off and on through the years with still no success!). But Yhwh’s timing is perfect, and He just helped me each step of the way. So once I finished cleaning my grandfathers room out (which took a couple of weeks), as a surprise, I locked myself in my grandfathers old room for a few days, working all day, day after day, to get it done! (For by now I only had a few days until their anniversary!)

Just as I was about done with the top of their quilt, I got called down to help a midwife out of state, for what was supposed to be a couple of days. I struggled with leaving, but really felt Yhwh tell me I needed to go. So I quickly packed up and headed down to her the following morning. (Bringing the quilt with me and finishing it in time for them to get it by the 11th! Whew!!) I finished it a few hours before I needed to meet my brother who was heading back home from visiting his sisters out of state! Yes, it was a close call!

We had one baby the following day (after I arrived) and the other waited for about two weeks. But during that time, I realized why Yhwh had told me to go.

On my way down to NH, a precious older gentleman who is like an adoptive grandfather to me, was in a bad car accident in PA, while visiting friends. (A drunk driver had hit his friends car). A week later he was transported back up to MA to a rehab, where I was then able to be with him every afternoon/evening, since I was down in the local area (about an hr and a half away). It was such an amazing time to share those evenings with him and to give him company as he recovered from his injuries, not to mention all he taught me during those weeks!!

About the time the baby was born, we were given the green-light for him to go home, still needing some care, so I was then able to stay on and help him for another couple of weeks until another couple was able to come take my place.

By this point, I was going to be home in Maine for only a few more weeks before I was to come down here to TN (which I was going to hitch a ride with some friends that Sunday, to help my sister who was due with her baby in three weeks.). But Yhwh had other plans still!!

My phone rang around 1am on Sept 21 and I looked at the number, and knew! She’d never gone early before, not the least at 37 weeks, but when I picked up the phone and heard that giggle and “ummmm…you better think about changing your plans for traveling down here and not wait…my water just broke!” Or something to that extent! I jumped out of bed! No slow waking that morning! I ran to my parents room and woke them up! We were all sooo excited!! Another bundle of joy soon to enter the world! I’d been with her during her last two births (the first being a full-term stillborn), but had felt months earlier that this one would be different and that I wouldn’t be there, as much as we had planned on my attending this one, too. I just felt Yhwh had other plans. Little did we know just what Yhwh was going to do!

My parents discussed my choices, drive or fly, but since I had been working feverishly to get some things done before I left home, I had been going to bed fairly late and thus only had about 2 hrs of sleep under my belt that night. Driving 24-26 hrs alone, with hardly any sleep, wasn’t something I cherished the thought of, and knew I couldn’t make it driving non-stop. So I knew it would take me atleast two days and even that would be hard to do, as I was already so tired before even starting on such a trip! Yeah, I think thats a no-go. ?

But buy a ticket last minute? Oy vy! I prayed and got on my pc…what I found, was nothing short of a miracle and soooo Yhwh! There were flights leaving Boston every couple of hours that day for Nashville and all of them were only about $130-135!! We had paid way more than that having purchased my tickets in advance, on prior trips! Praising Yhwh and figuring out when I could safely get packed and drive down to Boston, I purchased a ticket and called my sister back to let her know when I’d be arriving.

I called. No answer??? She just called me only a short time ago! I packed some more and called again a few minutes later…and they pick up, crying tears of joy, as I heard a newborn crying in the background!! Yes, it took only a couple of hours!!! Oh, how excited we were!!! A precious little bundle of a girl!! But the joyful news didn’t end there!!! There was another surprise in there!!! Yhwh had blessed them with a beautiful, beautiful set of twin little girls, Chavah Shalom at 5lbs 10 oz, and Hoshiana Bat-Tzion at 5lbs 8oz!

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I have been praying for my precious Mama to have twins since I was a young girl…but Yhwh blessed my sister with a set, instead!! Oh! How excited we were!!! TWINS!!!! We had TWINS!!!

Yes, Sept 21 was going to be a day that changed my life! Yhwh had answered my prayers in sooo many, many ways!!

 photo IMG-20161102-WA0001.jpgSome of you may have seen this link circulating through social media: https://www.youcaring.com/clinton-and-sharon-cauthen-657108 . It is a fundraiser that some dear friends set up to help my precious sister and her family with the very unexpected complications which they had after the birth, and thus the unexpected medical bills. The twins were both beautiful, healthy, and strong, but my sister ended up experiencing some issues due to their birth, which resulted in over $9,000 worth of medical bills! ?

Everyone is doing AMAZINGLY wonderful now, but I do pray and ask you to pray and see if Yhwh lays it on your heart to give to help them…every little bit helps! But least of all, please pass the link on so we can bless this amazing, godly couple, in this time of great need!

But back to the story! ? I arrived down that night and wow! Nothing can explain what the miracle of life is, but when you hold two precious little bundles, you can’t help but praise Yhwh for the breath of life and just look at them in complete awe and wonderment! I still look at them in awe!!

Life became extremely busy for this Auntie (or as I am lovingly called in Hebrew, Doda Lolly)! But oh, how I wouldn’t trade it!!!

 photo IMG-20161020-WA0009.jpgBeing raised in a large family, I really took my precious Mama having little ones every year to year and a half, for granted. I LOVE children! Babies were such a HUGE part of my life, and I loved every minute of it! Having a baby on my hip, in my arms, or tugging at my skirt was the norm for me. I loved it! If there was a baby, or even a pregnant mama anywhere nearby, we always knew where to find me! (Yes, even in the stores!)

But sadly I took it for granted that when my Mama would stop having them, I would just be married by then and having my own family, so never dreaming those times would ever come to an end. (Both of my older siblings were expecting their oldest child with my mother when she was expecting my youngest sister, so it wasn’t “way out there”.) But Yhwh had other plans.

One day, we no longer had a little ones in the house. It seemed like it just hit us, without warning. We knew it would end some day, after all Mama couldn’t have little ones forever, but when you’re in the midst of it, you just don’t even think about it. You get to expect the joyful news around a child’s 9th month of “guess what?!?! Yhwh is blessing us with another baby!!” We all absolutely loved children and would long for that joyful news each time!!! But one day turned into two, then one month, into a year, and a year, into over a decade. We waited, and waited, and waited! But we finally had to accept, those beautiful and special years were probably behind us. And it was a very, very sad day for us! It was the first time in 24 years that we didn’t have a baby in diapers! ?

But surely, wouldn’t Yhwh bless me with a husband and large family, too? Its what I longed for with all of my heart! People had often asked me how many children I wanted, and I would always respond “I would be in my glory with 25!!” And I truly would have been!

But I began to realize that unlike my sisters, I had to accept the question of “You say you’ll trust Me with your womb with as many as I long to bless you with, but will you trust me with as few as I choose to bless you with?”

I know for some, having child after child is hard for them to accept. But for me, the challenge didn’t come with trusting Him with child after child, it was in not being able to have children (or atleast not as many as I had longed to have). It was becoming more and more of a reality that I had to work through.

As the years grew into over a decade, my arms began to feel emptier by the day. Yes, I had nieces and nephews all around me, but it is totally different having them in and out of your day, vs being with the little ones 24/7. I never knew how void and emptied ones arms could feel. How I wished I had just stopped and enjoyed that little brother or sister in my arms, just a little bit more! Things could have waited! But that story, or play time with them, couldn’t! Soon they would be past that cuddle stage and eventually would become young adults, too! Life wouldn’t and doesn’t stop! Now my youngest sibling is 14 and wearing my clothes!

Since arriving a little over 7 weeks ago (almost 11 now!) I have been blessed above and beyond my wildest dreams!

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To have a little one run into my arms, tug on my skirt, play and dance with me…climb up into my lap to be read to or just cuddled…or the twins needing to be changed, held, cuddled, rocked…not to mention being able to help my sister with the house, cleaning, and cooking!

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For the first time in years, the ache and void is almost gone. My arms are once again filled, sometimes overflowing ? with little ones! A day doesn’t go by that I don’t have atleast one baby in my arms! Laundry has become a daily activity, as has folding diapers, wiping little faces, and getting to watch these little ones blossom and bloom into who Yhwh has created them to be! Its absolutely incredible and an absolute miracle to be able to watch and be a part of!! Absolutely amazing, to say the least!!

Yes, I long for the day that it is my little one/s I am holding, my family I am serving, and my husband I am cooking for and packing lunches for! But I have to admit, I am thrilled to be blessed to be here!! Its second best, as we lovingly like to say!

So you asked if I have been okay and if I am busy…yes and YES!!! I have been known to laugh and ask my sister “how do you get it all done in 24 hours?!” Running a house with little ones is a lot of work! But it is soooooo soooooo sooooo worth it all!!! Yes, there are nights I just have to say “all well. It will wait until morning” or look at the sink filling with dishes and look at my nephew needing Doda Lolly time, and shrug my shoulders. Dishes will wait. My sister needs me to watch both babies for a little bit? Sure!!!

I told a friend I had laughed and told my precious Mama that I had it really rough!! I mean, I get woken up in the night to…hold and cuddle a baby while my sister uses the bathroom (as with twins they have a VERY keene ability of waking each other up!)! I mean, how much rougher can it get??? ? (and for the record, I LOVE it!! I was teasing my mom as she knew I was in my glory!!)

And in the past couple of weeks we have also moved (my sisters family), so I had been even more busy than usual with packing, cleaning, moving, and unpacking and re-organizing things, on top of the usual things. So know that although I am hardly able to write, it is only because I have been so richly blessed to help my sister with her three little ones, so my usual free time has been filled to brimming with family time!!

Which brings me to ask y’all a question. Do any of you have crockpot meals to share?? I have come to love the crockpot, but having lived off-grid for so many years, I don’t have but a couple of recipes! Helpful crockpot meals, casseroles, etc, would be a delight!! ?

 photo IMG-20161206-WA0007.jpgSo in closing, I want to encourage each of you, cherish those young years!!! They pass soooo quickly!!! Don’t push off reading that little story, or getting on the floor to play that little game! One day you’ll wake up to find they have grown up and are even marrying and starting their own families (as have half of my siblings already!!)! Take time to enjoy them NOW! Don’t wait!

Alright, my little family is needing dinner set out, so I will leave you with a few more pictures. Enjoy and may Yhwh richly bless you all!!!

Until next time,

Samantha

P.S. This morning is a classic example of how filled my life is right now!!! My sister came in my room and handed me my two nieces to snuggle as she showered. I had been gone all day yesterday, needing to run up to KY really quickly yesterday. Oh, how I missed them!!! A short time later I hear pitter patter and glance up as I hear excitement from my nephew! He had just woken up and came to my room and got so excited when he saw me (he was already asleep when I came home last night)! He came running to me for a big hug…and people say children aren’t worth it?! Who could put a price tag on this?!!!!

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Happy Thankgiving!

I wanted to take a minute and just thank Yhwh for all He has blessed me with! My brother said we had the most incredible family, and I can’t agree with him more! Yhwh has truly blessed us beyond anything we could ever come close to deserving! And as I sit here and am so thankful for all He has done, I can’t help but think of my precious parents who have made Him blessing us, a possibility and reality! If it wasn’t for them trusting Yhwh with their womb and asking to be blessed with children after giving their lives to Him, I wouldn’t be here. Neither would my other 12 siblings, precious in-laws, and soon to be 20 other nieces and nephews! Because of their obedience, I have been blessed with 24 siblings (including in-laws), and soon to be 30 nieces and nephews!! Yes, there were challenging times for them…we weren’t and aren’t always the “perfect” children. But they knew what was important! They gave their talents, money, time, and energy to raising us all up in the ways and truths of scripture, showing us a love and passion for serving and loving our Heavenly Father Yhwh and Son Yahshua, and loved us with a love like none other!! We tease them that they grew up with us, and its true! They played with us, sang with us, taught us, worked with us, read to us, memorized scripture with us, and simply loved being with us! They taught us what a family ought to be. They hugged us and comforted us, admonished us, encouraged us, prayed with and for us! The list is endless!!!

And now to see their work of love continuing onto the next generation, is just amazing to behold! To realize “we” wouldn’t be here, if it wasn’t for them, is incredible. Not to mention not being who we are!! 

So more than ever, I am soooo thankful to Yhwh for blessing me with the most incredible parents alive!! If you don’t know them, you ought to!! Their love for each other, for us, and for their God, is outstanding!!! Yes, I love my parents and family soooo much!!!

And I am so thankful for each one of you! Yhwh has blessed my life with such incredible friends and I am truly grateful and thankful for each one of you!! 

Feeling like the richest and most blessed girl alive!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

P.s. Girls, I opologize for not writing more! Life has been extremely full amd extemely blessed lately! I’ve been out of state for a couple of months now, helping my sister with her twins and toddler (YES!! Yhwh blessed them with beautiful surprise twin girls on 9-21-16!) and so writing is a bit more challenging right now.  I have been working on a post for a couple of weeks now, that I hope to get up here soon, and a lot of other posts running through my mind that I simply haven’t gotten typed on my phone yet! ? ? But do be looking for an update real soon!! ?

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Do We Truly KNOW Him?

The below message has so richly blessed me this morning. It never ceases to amaze me just how much my Beloved Abba Yhwh knows what I need to hear!

Girls, we long to KNOW, truly know, our husbands, do we not? We long to know their deepest thoughts and desires, we long to know and become one with/in them, bearing much fruit…not only physical fruit, but most importantly, spiritual fruit for His kingdom!

But my question to you is, do you KNOW Yhwh your God? Or do you just know ABOUT Him? It is one thing to know about our husbands, it is entirely different to actually KNOW them. Do we truly know God? Are we truly ONE in Him?

This past little while has been a time that I have to honestly say, has challenged me in a lot of ways. It hasn’t been easy and I find myself asking Yhwh why life has to be so hard at times? Couldn’t it be just a tad bit easier? :o) But you know what, it is through these trials and storms, that I am truly getting to KNOW my Beloved Yhwh and who He is! He is making Himself known to me in ways that I have never truly known Him before. He is bringing me to such a place where I know I can not walk as He has commanded, without Him! He is teaching me that it is NOT I, but He who lives in me! It has to be ALL about Him! Not some, but ALL!! 

And I don’t know about you, but it has not been when life has sailed ever so smoothly, that I have learned these lessons! Its so easy to think “I” got this, or “I” can do this when life is going on so calmly! But when the waters are troubled, the waves rushing up against us, that I begin to realize the truth…I don’t and I can’t do this on my own or in my own strength! And how sweet it is to get to such a place!!

 I don’t want to know ABOUT my God, I want to KNOW my God! I don’t want to be WITH my God, I want to be IN my God and He IN me!!! And if it takes, like it did in Egypt, Him bringing me through whatever storms He sees fit to bring me through, then so be it! I want to get to such a place with Him, that I can truly say, I KNOW my God and that I am one IN Him! Not just WITH Him! I’m not content to just know about Him. I am not content to have a casual relationship with Him. Just as I will not be, when Yhwh so wills, to be content to simply understand who my husband is. No, we all desire to KNOW our husbands in every sense of the word!! We want that intimate relationship with them, do we not? Then sisters, how much more important is it to get to such a place in our relationship with Yhwh, that we have that same intimate relationship with Him and get to the place that we KNOW Him? Are we truly ONE in Him? Do we honestly love Yhwh our God with ALL of our hearts? May this truly be our goal and become our reality!!

May you truly be encouraged by this message.

Shabbat Shalom!

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Feminine Modesty Red, Black and Tan Outfit

Shalom, Shalom!

Okay, I can’t help but have a little fun with this post! I just have to tease my precious sister, Sarah!! Every time I wear different combination of colors and outfits, her favorite question is “Oh, Can I get pictures of that outfit?!” And…well…as much as I don’t mind pictures, posing is not “my” thing. So I put it off as much as possible, for as long as possible…but with a photographer in the house, that doesn’t last long! I soon get the eye and the “I’m still waiting!!” smile!

Well, one day we were down by the lake just enjoying our walk, when out came the question of the day…”Oh! I haven’t gotten that combination yet!! I should get pictures of that outfit!!” :o}

But then…well…she has a Samsung…do I need to say more? ;o) Yes, probably half of us (myself included) love the Iphones, while the other half love their Samsungs…so as you can imagine, there is a lot of teasing about which one is better around our house! She told me, after a little while of trying, that her Samsung couldn’t get the picture to come out, so I teased her that she ought to try my Iphone, took a selfie, and showed her how the lighting was coming out just fine with the…yep…Iphone!! lol

She laughed, shook her head, accepted my phone, and got the pictures…much to my delight that day! ;o) I thought of only showing you all the nice and serious pictures, but this is kind of what life is like around our house…so…I thought for once, I will give y’all a good real taste of our family life and at the same time, make you laugh! What would life be, if you can’t laugh, have fun with each other, and tease one another? So here you go! I’ll try to dialogue our conversation that day…

Me: “See???”
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Me: “Try the Iphone!”
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She takes the phone…I mean Iphone ;o) and tells me where she wants me…

Me: “Oh!!!! You want me to stand like this???”
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Me: “No??? What about this???” :o)
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Okay, this was a couple of days after my grandfather had passed away and we all needed a good laugh…you should have seen her double over laughing, shaking her head telling me “ummm…not exactly!”

Me: “Oh! I got it now! You want me to pose like this!!!”

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Still laughing and shaking her head “no”!

Me: “I’m getting it now!!!” She liked this one…go figure! ;o)

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And the outfit I am actually wearing today…but these were taken awhile ago…sorry for the delay in posting them! Same shirt, but with my black embroidered skirt. By the way, both the shirts cost about $3-4 total…I’m wearing a long sleeve knit with the cooler cotton one over it. Love, love, love this shirt!

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The black skirt I purchased at our thrift store for I think about $1-2. I loved how dressy it was with the embroidery around the bottom. and you can’t really see my black sandals, but I purchased those for about $30 at our local shoe store. :o)

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The head covering was purchased from Hannah’s Headcovering’s, and the bobby pins are some of my all time favorite, the Princess Teira ones from Lilla Rose!
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Have a wonderful, wonderful evening! Hope I atleast made you gals smile! :o) Life is good, because God is good!!! Remember to smile, relax, and enjoy the life He has given you!

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